My Journey to Releasing Depression and Anxiety with Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT

Releasing Depression + Anxiety with Psychedelics

Shay Erik


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My Journey to Releasing Depression and Anxiety with Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT

For many years, I struggled with chronic depression and anxiety. I had tried many different medications and therapies, but nothing seemed to alleviate my symptoms fully. Then, I discovered the powerful healing abilities of psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT. These psychedelics have allowed me to not only release my depression and anxiety but also access deeper parts of myself and the world around me. Here’s my journey with these psychedelics that will provide insight into how they can be used for healing.

What is Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT?

Psilocybin is a natural compound found in magic mushrooms used for centuries in traditional medicine. It produces profound changes in perception, mood, and consciousness. 5-MeO-DMT, on the other hand, is a synthetic compound found in some plants and animals. It is known for its intense and transformative effects. Both psychedelics have been used in spiritual and healing contexts for many years.

My Journey with Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT

My first experience with psilocybin was transformative. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace and connectedness to the world. My anxiety and depression seemed to melt away, and I thought I could see things more clearly. Over time, I began experimenting with higher doses and found I could access even more profound parts of myself and the world around me. Although there were some challenging moments, the overall experience was profoundly positive.

When I first tried 5-MeO-DMT, I was blown away by its intensity. It felt like I was transported to another dimension, where I could see everything more clearly than ever. This psychedelic allowed me to confront some of my deepest fears and insecurities and release them in a way I had never been able to before. Although the experience was intense, I felt incredible relief and freedom afterward.

My Challenging Journey with Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT for Ego Death and Integration

I have had some of the most profound experiences with psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT, but I have also had some of the most challenging moments. I have navigated the difficult moments to integrate these experiences into my life meaningfully. As powerful and beautiful as my journeys have been, my ego was unprepared for what would come next. In subsequent journeys, I began to experience the darker aspects of my psyche - fears, anxieties, and insecurities buried deep within me. It was as if the psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT forced me to confront these things head-on, and it was incredibly uncomfortable.

What helped me through these challenging moments was remembering that the experience was temporary and that I had chosen to take the mushrooms in the first place. I also reminded myself to trust the process and to surrender to the experience, even if it was difficult. This is not to say that I always had an easy time with psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT - there were times when I had to follow up with my integration coach to talk me “off the ledge” - but ultimately, I feel that facing these problematic aspects of myself has made me a stronger and more grounded person.

5-MeO-DMT was a whole different ballgame. This psychedelic is known for its ability to induce what is often described as a "complete and total ego death." My experience with it was nothing short of life-changing, but it was not without challenges. In the moments leading up to the peak of the experience, I felt as if I was dissolving into nothingness and that everything I had ever known was being ripped away. I panicked and tried to hold onto my sense of self, but ultimately had to let go and allow myself to be absorbed into the infinite.

I learned from this experience that the ego is not who we are - it is simply a construct we have created to navigate the world around us. When we let go of this construct, we can tap into something more profound. But it is a challenging and comfortable process. It was essential to have someone there to guide me through the experience and help me understand it afterward.

Integration has been a critical part of my psychedelic journey. It is one thing to have a profound experience, but it is another thing entirely to integrate that experience into your everyday life. This has meant journaling about my experiences, meditating, and talking with trusted friends and therapists about what I have learned. It has also suggested making changes in my life to align more fully with my deeper values and to let go of the things that no longer serve me.

The Science Behind Psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT

The scientific research on psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT have been positive[1]. Studies have shown that these psychedelics can help alleviate depression, anxiety, and other mental health issues. They have also increased feelings of well-being and connectedness to others and the world around us. These psychedelics change how the brain processes information, allowing us to see things in a new light.

My experiences with psilocybin and 5-MeO-DMT have been incredibly positive and transformative. These psychedelics have allowed me to release my depression and anxiety and access deeper parts of myself and the world around me. Although they are not without risks, the potential benefits are enormous. If you want to explore these psychedelics for healing purposes, I encourage you to research and work with a knowledgeable and experienced guide. With the right mindset and setting, these psychedelics can be incredibly powerful personal and spiritual growth tools.

[1] Meet 5-MeO-DMT, the ‘powerful’ psychedelic that improves depression in one hour